These tattoos mean God Almighty (El-Shaddai), my Owner (Adonai). Now, before all you huge theologians come at me, I know that is not a literal translation. There are many different ways people translate this but for me God Almighty my owner means more than anything. It reminds me that I was bought with a price and that I am owned by a Holy God.
I got this a few months ago, and it’s my new favorite addition. I love it. It looks a little gross because this was about 30 seconds after i got this done. I’ve been through a lot, and when i was drowning in demons and struggling to hold on, my friend started taking me to church with her. At this time I was cutting again, i was struggling with an eating disorder, I was terrified at the thought there was a strong possibility i was pregnant (I was 18), and i was just depressed. Very depressed, and suicidal.
I used to go to church when i was a little kid, but not recently really. I went every wednesday evening. It changed my life. I’d always said i believed in God, but i really never showed it. I only prayed when i wanted something, and then i’d sort of ignore Him until i needed Him again. I cried almost every time i had went to church with her. Sometimes because of sadness, usually because of happiness. Either way, it was where i became comfortable. Everyone there genuinely cared.
I’ve been almost 8 months clean now of self harm now, I don’t remember the last time i starved myself, or purged, and i’ve found positivity in everything. I love God with every fiber of my being and i’m slowly and surely bettering myself as a person, for Him, and me. I pray really close to every single day. Sometimes once, sometimes more. He’s saved me. I’ve found my reason to live.
Referencing 1 Peter 2:24, “by His wounds you are healed,” and Isaiah 53:5, “But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.”
“by His wounds I have been healed,” a beautiful statement that I do not deserve and will never get over. Jehovah Rophi, the Healer. Something I wanted to be reminded of daily.
One day at work I saw a NOTW sticker on a car in this design, and immediately knew it was referencing one of my favorite verses, 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18: “Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” I knew right then it would be my next tattoo. It might be weird to get inspired by a bumper sticker, but having it on my wrist is a really good reminder for myself, and offers a lot of opportunities to share Scripture when people ask me what it says!
“May the Lord keep you in His hand, and never close His fist too tight”
This is an Irish blessing, and as an Irish-Catholic it means a lot to me. A lot of people read this and think it’s about the wrath of God, but it’s not.
Think about it this way, when you hold something in your fist, with your palm out flat, you can see it perfectly. The more you close your hand the less visible it is. This is the true meaning of the blessing. It’s about God always watching over you and never losing sight of you, and you always be in His protection.